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"A guilty conscience needs to confess. A work of art is a confession." Albert Camus

Joining the other side

I’ve decided that, with blogger’s enormous popularity, I’ve returned to make a blog there under a more significant title.

WordPress doesn’t allow me to follow any of you at all, and I have to get you all under my favorites, which is starting to get way too long! Sure, it’s got the blog stats, but, I mean, I’d rather know my followers and see more clearly who comments.

Looking Glass Fables is my new blogspot page. Please bare with me! I will add you all very shortly.

For now, I need a nappy for my cold !


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Last night, as I lay in bed trying to breath though my lungs were blocked by yucky sickness mucus, I had an epiphany.

The twins I had wanted to be a part of my shortfilm for university applications are unavailable, and I was forced to conjure up a plan B. Luckily, my Italian friend Anastasia is talented in acting, and I have asked her to replace them. I am lucky to have very good friends who are supporting my goal as a future filmmaker.

But then I remembered… It wouldn’t make any sense if there was only one. My whole idea had to be reworked, so everything fit like a puzzle with my new subject. And luckily, at 11pm last night, it came to me full-force! I had to write it down – it wasn’t anything I could afford to lose.

As you must know, my short must be a work of art. Not simply a little story with a cute end, with crap production design because I’m only limited to my own house. No. Fail. I’m very straightforward with my ideas – it MUST be this way, otherwise, everything falls apart. If there’s a broken connection, it doesn’t feel right. I guess it’s a good trait if you’re aiming to be a director. Anyway, at the university’s presentation, they specifically asked that the short represented you as a filmmaker and an artist. They want to see if you can project your creativity in film, and that’s the kind of trait that’s going to let me in.

My idea circles around the way we feel when we’re about to create something. Whenever I want to start a piece, I always worry about the outcome – what others will think about it, or if they’ll think it’s too much for the outside world to accept. I’m sure every creative person has felt that way before. My film will be about that specific uncertainty.

I see it very clearly. Actually, my sister was listening to this song the other day, and I thought it was perfect for the video. It’s got this eerie circus-freak feel to it, which is exactly the kind of mood that I want to set.

It will start with a girl living in this very conservative atmosphere. She starts to see her “creative side”, the one she fears to let out. She feels she’ll be judged by those around her if she listens to it. But she gives in to curiosity and starts to follow that side of her. It leads her out of her bubble, and in the end, it stops before an empty canvas, and a paintbrush is waiting for her.

That’s the basic outline of it, anyway.  What do you think? (: I haven’t told many people about it yet – mostly because I’m stuck here with this yucky cold. My teacher yesterday gave me the recommendation letter I’ve been asking for. I was really surprised!! I honestly thought for sure he’d forgotten or stopped caring. I was really afraid about it. But he wrote some good stuff for me and I really hope it’s going to get me surer access to the Mel Hoppenheim School of Cinema.

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New Moon Parody – The Best of The West!

I don’t know if you all remember, but a few weeks ago, I posted a Tuesday Treasures with a video from Hannah & Hilly Hindi’s infamous Hillywood Show on youtube. They only recently came out with a 10minute preview of their current work in progress, which I am totally looking forward to… more than the DVD release of New Moon itself. I think I mentioned before that my only reason for watching it was for showing my support for Dakota Fanning. Dudes, I could really go up to that DVD desk, take out a 20$ bill, and write TO DAKOTA FANNING ONLY on it before getting the movie. Kristen Stewart can wax those annoying little eyebrows right off her face, because these sisters are really more talented than she could ever be… and they’re only on youtube!

I’m only promoting this because personally, I think it kicks a lot of ass.

Please, enjoy. (:

PS: Hahahahahahaha…. shit, my handcream bottle just ripped apart and exploded.

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New Year, New starts!

Hope everyone had a wicked New Year’s Eve! With two more years left t’ill 2012, has everyone started planning for their apocalypse? Haha!

Yesterday, we went to see the Princess and The Frog! I’d been wanting to watch it for a while, and I must say, I was really pleased! I’m a big John Lasseter fan, the director who makes most of the new Disney movies, now. The animation was super fun, the story was adorable, and there were some things that I was really surprised to see in a Disney movie! I must’ve cried every fifteen minutes. Mostly because it’s my bad week and I was unnaturally sensitive. Crying over anything and everything in the movie all while keeping it hidden. I was a wreck, basically. Haha.

Also, my older sister and I gathered some friends and we went for a two-hour long karaoke session! The area was Korean, and we were worried that the songbook would be written in Korean too. Luckily, it wasn’t. There were English songs as well as many types of asian. The room was small, and could hold up to nine people, but when we’re all singing and acting crazy, it starts to get hot and we all start to wish we could karaoke outside in the -4 degree snowstorm. Or, ice-storm, rather. The lyrics were written in huge white letters in front of the screen, and the television, at the same time, was showing some korean music videos. They were all so dramatic! Intense and emotionally drive. It didn’t matter if the singer was butch, he could be crying through the entire thing (and one of them was like that… no joke!) A few of them stuck to my mind, and  I wish I could find their original videos on youtube to show you. Some of them were very good while others were … too much.

I remember one of them. A boy trying to catch the attention of a girl he likes. She loves penguins, takes pictures of them, sees them in zoos, and they’re all she ever thinks about. So to catch her attention, he tries to take one for her, and they fall in love. AWH.

Other music videos included the mob, best friends with guns… shooting heroin. Yeah. That was the “too much” part I was talking about! XD

After two hours of karaokeing, we went to Parliament Hill to watch the lights projected on the building. We took pictures, went to see the Prime Minister’s kitty house (there’s at least 20 in there), and we later decided to hit the bars so we could join everyone for the countdown! It was my first time being carded for a bar. Pretty exciting, huh? I couldn’t afford anything, though, so I didn’t take any orders. Oops.

There was a snowstorm (and it’s still snowing today), and still, girls were wearing their heels in there to get to their new year’s bashes. We saw so many attics filled with dancers. Limousines, drunk teenagers, rich tourists at our most expensive hotels, coming to Ottawa just for the welcoming of the new year!

All in all, I think it was a great way to finish the year! (:

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Thinking on New Year’s resolution already!!

I’ve made up a list of things I want to do for 2010, already. My goals. 2010 will be a year of my determination as an artist. I’m a creator, I have been since I was 10. No more teenage angst. No more teenage problems in general. I’m an adult now, and I’m in control!

1. find a mate. another half. not in a bar.

2. develop creativity. at least one drawing every two days.

3. start writing mothpowder and stick to it.

4. get in shape, lose weight. look good = feel good.

5. get rid of graphic T’s. You’re not a kid anymore. You are what you wear, not what you can only afford to wear.

6. finish what you start. No more half-assed bullshit.

7. read, watch, and learn from it.

8. meats larger than a chicken & mayo out of the diet. gross.

9. work your ass off into university. and when you do, work even harder.

10. computer hours reduced to two, max. get shit done.

11. get bursaries & scholarships. maybe a job, too.

Let’s see how this goes.

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Chamonix au pays des merveilles

My 13-year-old french spagnol on the morning after our christmas party at the family cottage. There’s ice everywhere, it’s windy, but absolutely beautiful! She looks so happy, too, after spending four hours in a car. Excuse the rough quality and shakiness (“: I’m still getting used to my new baby. It’s super light. Did I mention? XD

Now, this is only a corner of the cottage. It is much bigger than this. Something like a little village?

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Christmas Post

Hope everyone had a wicked christmas. Mine was awesome!!

There were only a few downs. On the 23rd & 24th, my stomach was rejecting pretty much everything I was eating. No cheese, no fast food, not even a simple sandwich. Luckily, it didn’t last up to the 25th, so I was clear by then. My dad brought back a huge LCD flatscreen and we watch the new Star Trek movie on it until midnight. At midnight sharp, we could start opening our presents!

This year, I was sure my parents won the lottery or something. After the huge television, it started out with the remaining seasons my mom was missing from the Buffy series. We have all seven seasons now, so my mom can now start collecting Angel! We love Joss Whedon here. Then, I got cranberry handcream from my sisters – a really big cup full of it from the Body Shop. The store seems to be gaining some popularity, too. Anyway, I also got Public Enemies (which was really not as good as I thought it would be, but the cover’s nice?), delicious Lindor chocolate, a ticket to the Bon Jovi concert and then I opened another package… and it was a CAMCORDER! And it is B.A.UTIFUL! With my determination to continue my education in film, my parents got it to me so I can further pursue my passion! I tried it, and the whole thing is just fabulous. I can take photos and videos, put some shiny effects, record directly without use of a tape, and it is light as a feather! I can’t wait to start working on my short film for my portfolio, now. I am so much more motivated to finish it!

On the 26th, we had to attend two christmas parties. The first, at noon, on my dad’s side. A little boring (they’re kind of snotty), but I got a few good conversations and got to see again how fast my cousins grow on that side. They’re all either my age or younger, and it is really strange to see them get so tall since I see them once or twice a year. I tried not to eat too much, being cautious with my bad stomach, and I luckily left some space in there for dinner.

Dinner was served at the family cottage on my mom’s side. In winter there, the waves freeze up almost instantly and they turn into crystal caves, once big enough to hold eight of us at once. Now, on that side, my cousin Marie (she’d just returned from a trip to Morocco/Asia) is a director of photography and she helped me sort out some things for college, offered her help, and everything. I also spoke to my uncle’s wife, who no one likes and who actually seemed very interested in my future plans. She thought it was impressive (especially coming from me. Because I don’t look like someone with a plan) that I had it all sorted out already and I was very confidentially following that path. They’d just returned from a England, and it was awesome to hear about the home of the Queen. Apparently, everything there is always busy, worse than NYC, and absolutely everything is twice as expensive as it is in North America.

My other Aunt, the organizer of the crew, had this brilliant idea to have everyone participate in a family “montage”. At special moments, you’d break out in dance and film yourself. She did it while receiving her very important medal. The woman who gave it to her looked at her like she was crazy to the song Love Generation by Bob Sinclair. It was hilarious. They danced in Europe with the Quebec flag, the newest baby, Raphael  danced, they danced in Vietnam on the boats… yeah. My family is random :p Unfortunately, we didn’t have a video camera to participate, but now that we do… expect me to break out in dance at random moments!  Haha.

For dinner, I made delicious home-made nanaimo bars. My specific recipe drove everyone mad. In a good way, of course. It was the most popular food there and I admit I was pretty proud of myself! Despite the cream sliding off the sides in every direction.

All in all, I had a good time and I am looking forward to New Year’s Eve. I hope I’m going to have plans. o-o Since I’m of legal drinking age now, I might hit the bars or something. We’ll see!

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Mothpowder update at last!!

I’m going to post about my Christmas soon! Don’t worry! It’ll be up when I come back from the family Christmas in Montreal. I’m going there the 26th and 27th.

I have been fleshing out the plotline for Mothpowder, because when I read the last synopsis, it seemed unclear to me. I couldn’t make up very many events. So, here’s the newly-formed one, just for you!

m o t h p o w d e r

After witnessing the shocking death of her father, young clairvoyant Hailey Simmons is transfered to Blair Academy, a prestigious boarding school also renown for its colorful history. There, she meets the mysterious Thomas Blair, descendant of the school’s founder. The building itself is a Hell Circle, a result of the last witch that was burnt there before Blair Academy was created. In her final words, the witch cursed the school and its founding family, so that they will never forget the treachery that lead to her death.

I know there’s things missing, but at the same time, I don’t want to reveal too much.Tell me what you think? Tips? Suggestions? I’m a little rusty with synopsizes.

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Thought I might share some hilarities with you :p may contain crude humor? sorta Tuesday Treasures. Except… late.

the shoes i told Wendy@ her blog on words and upwards about :O




so i guess that’s good? xD

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important pole question

Thanks for your participation!!

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